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I will stop [29 Mar 2014|10:59pm]
mysecretshames
Hey,
I will stop
I will not drop
The ball will always stay up
High in the sky

My spirits
They will soar
my heart...
Shattered and scarred

I will not let the blade beat me
I will hold control
I will stay on top of the world
I will rise above them all..

That is a little ditty I wrote :3 it is jadelily from RYL

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Hello [13 Aug 2012|12:01am]

unowncafe
Umm hi guys. I'm Jill. I'm 19 and i got to a community college. I have a very strange relationship with my self harm.

When i was Junior (like two or three years ago.) i started and it wasn't cutting because i scratched the skin more of with pins and needles and tacks and really anything. Then i was a senior and didn't self harm that entire year and downright hated my scars. Then on December 7th 2011 (i went away to college which i had the craziest roomates and the craziest ra.) I started up again. Until like two (or so.) months ago i started to use scissors and knives to actually cut with. Since then i have tried a ridiculous amount of times to stop. It's not going very well.

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Hi [05 Aug 2012|06:12pm]

blueandredroses
I joined recover your life recently and started a journal.
I am roseblue or you can call me Rose/Pippa.
Wanted to introduce myself here aswell.

I have posted an introduction but if you have any questions come say hello :-)

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Depressed and confused. [22 Feb 2012|06:38pm]

blackroseshadow

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[19 Feb 2012|05:48pm]

thequietonexx
I have made a BPD community have a look and join here.
:)

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[20 Oct 2011|09:01pm]
kt234
I am a graduate student who is looking to explore the ways girls between the age of 16-19 explore their lives through online spaces, such as blogs. If you would be interested in participating in the research please leave a comment or send me a private message. You will be compensated for your participation.

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Please Help Us Understand Self-harm [24 Oct 2010|10:29pm]
perl_sfu
 Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! We are looking for people who have self-injured, whether you are currently trying to stop or not, to complete questionnaires every 3 months for one year to understand patterns of self-harm over time. Participating in the study takes 2 hours, and you will receive an online gift certificate worth $5 CAD for each time point you complete, plus a chance for a $25 bonus if you complete all the follow-ups over one year for a total of $50.

If you are interested in participating, please email us at emotion@sfu.ca. All your information will be kept confidential, and no identifying information is linked to your responses.


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THE DETAILS:

Background Information:

Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help! We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help.

What you can do:

If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 2 hour to complete. Later, you’ll have a chance to complete follow-up questionnaires over a 12 month period. Although the first session is long, the follow-up questionnaires are shorter, and usually take on 30 to 90 minutes to complete.

Who can participate:

We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.You must be at least 16 years old to participate.

What’s in it for you:

Participants who complete the questionnaires will receive a $5 (Canadian currency) gift certificate each time you complete the questionnaires (from amazon.com or PayPal). In addition, you will receive a $25 bonus if you complete all five follow-ups in the first year! Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

Important Information:

This study is the second phase of this line of research, and builds on the previous study. If you have already participated in our research (in a study called “Characteristics Associated with Self-Injury”), you are still eligible to complete this study.

Please contact us at emotion@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

Thank you,

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)
Simon Fraser University
Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6

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Depressed [22 Aug 2010|01:52am]

dancintrulife
[ mood | Sad ]

Hi everyone depression has come back,i'm ok daytime but at night i get so so depressed and end up cutting usually. I cant tell anyone,i'm meant to be better and i'm too ashamed and dont want to worry anyone. It just always seems to come back. I see my psych in 3 weeks but i dont know that he'll help in anyway. I also get strange thoughts, usually when i'm out, that dont even make sense,like why am i here now and what if i die now. I just can't help thinking if i was thinner everything would be ok.

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[27 Feb 2010|04:06am]
sherrixbaby
Hi, I am a 22 year old female struggling with self injury. I hope this isn't against your rules, but I just wanted to tell you about my forum. www.emotionalawareness.lefora.com

I'm not here to spam or anything, and I would like to be an active member of this group, but I just wanted to tell you about my forum, as we touch on topics such as eating disorders, depression, phobias, anxiety/panic, bipolar, abuse, borderline, addiction, etc.

My forum is just getting started, but I would really appreciate it if you would check it out and maybe tell your friends who might need some support.

Thanks guys! <3

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Keloid scarring [19 Feb 2010|11:57pm]

not_john_lennon
Hi! I'm new to the community, and so I hope I'm doing this right...

I'm a recovering self-harmer, and I although I'm now trying very hard not to hurt myself I was once very prone to burning my skin, mostly with lighters, cigarettes and stovetops. As a result I now have keloid scarring on my breast and inner thigh, and although they're not too big they are still really ugly and I am so fucking paranoid that they will get bigger. Does anyone have any experience with keloid scarring? Have you tried removing them with surgery, and how big can they end up getting, even if they are initially quite small? I feel so self conscious about them, and especially hate that they are a constant reminder of how unhappy I was and still often am.

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howdy [16 Jan 2010|10:34pm]

nyxpiper
i am a recovering cutter, havent cut for over 2 years... i think... maybe just under.... i dont remember anymore....
since then i havent been this ... i have never wanted to cut this badly...
.-."
my fiance may be losing her job soon, i am soo stressed over my spanish class... my gender issues have bloomed into full on crazy and i have no outlet for that that wont harm my life... all i have left is a knife

natalie

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another support site [27 Aug 2009|09:30am]
potterfreak1
Hey I have a support site, its growing at a quick pace at 144 members now and i think it will help you guys.  It is on mental health issues, has forums on cutting among a lot of other things.  It even has a chat that is starting to get used.  Please check it out.  The link is http://selfhelp.yuku.com it has helped me an im a recovering cutter.  stay strong and be safe.

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Hmm I forgot I was on here! [23 Aug 2009|06:48pm]

emeraldgirl93
[ mood | depressed ]

Well, This is my first post to this community. I'v had livejournal for awhile but I rarely come on here. Mainly because I don't care for the interface. I like blogger much better but anyways. My name on RYL is Ice-to-Ashes. I don't really post much but I'v been a member for about a year I think. I'v been a cutter for like 4 years I want to say? I'm currently not in recovery for self injury but I really would like to stop. I had tryed previously and failed. My parents do know about my self injury but they either forgot or don't care. Unfortuantly my grandparents found out about it too which really sucks because I know i'm hurting them by doing this to myself. I want to stop but it's hard when all you think about constintly everyday is how bad you want to cut, or how bad you wish you would just not wake up. I know the first step to recovery is throwing out the blades but for some reason I want to hold on to them...ugh I want to quit but I don't. So I'm going to end this post.

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[18 Aug 2009|10:19pm]

paintedblue_00
I havent cut in around 3 years now. But I have the worst overwhelming feeling to cut myself, and its really hard to not do it. The only thing that keeps me from actually doing it, and the shame of failing. I've done so well over the last three years and I dont want to waste that. I'm scared.

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Again, and again, and again [21 Mar 2009|06:07am]

goosfan
[ mood | depressed ]

So I did it again, I cut myself. Over a hundred times. So much has happened tonight it is ridiculous. I went to work and we were so busy I didnt get out of there until like 2 in the morning. It sucked. I gotta be back at work at 8 a.m. But I came home to find out that the two people who have been baby sitting my daughter were drinking while they watched my daughter. They were not drunk just a little buzzed. Well, I was mad and upset and I said something to my sister. Well, she flipped out and came and took my daughter from me. I am unsure for how long she took her for or if it was just an over the night thing. But I was crying my eyes out because I just lost my little girl and I was looking for someone to blame. And I blamed the two people who were watching her. Well, Anthony, the guy I flew from Pennsylvania down to be with me for 16 days, kept trying to tell me it was for the best and she is probably better off. I am sorry, but I love my daughter to death and I would give my life for her. I may not be the best mother in the world but I am a good mother. I wont get the mother of the year card but I am a good mother. Well, we just kept fighting and arguing and thats all we have been doing since he got here. Every since he found out I slept with another dude. Even though we are technically not together. But if you do fly another guy from another state down to be with you, you guys are basically together. Well I told him tonight about another guy I slept with and he told me he is going to go get tested and that im a whore and a smut, which is worse than a slut. I already lost my daughter and I lost him too. Well, we kept fighting and he laid in bed and I grabbed my razor and took it apart and sliced my thighs up ridiculously bad. I carved slut 3 times into m thighs and just a bunch of lines. It made me feel better. Well, I heard him get out of bed and I quickly threw the razor in the sink and called my friend into the bathroom and showed her and she cleaned everything up EXCEPT the razor in the sink I threw. Which was hard to see. Well, I walked out and grabbed clothes and Anthony kind of made some smart ass comment about oh what did you cut yourself which reminded me of how it was a joke. Well, I got into the shower and grabbed the blade that was left behind and sliced some more and carved he said no into my thigh as well. And then I turned off the shower and just sat there. Anthony came in and looked at it and he was like do you feel better. And truthfully I actually kind of do. It was the release I needed. But he was like Im going to sit here and analyze you and the things he said were so true. He said that I have severe depression and any guy that comes and spits lines at me and makes me feel better about myself I will sleep with. And truthfully it is. I am depressed and now im adding to post tramatic stress syndrom from me just having my daughter almost 4 months ago and I cant be happy. I have tried and nothing is making me happy but my daughter. For that instant of me cutting I felt alive. I felt something. I just dont know what to do. All I keep thinking about is that razor still sitting in the shower and how it would feel to cut again.

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Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? [04 Mar 2009|08:18pm]
perl_sfu

Hello from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!

 

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm?

 

Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help!  We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help. 

 

What you can do: If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 2 hours to complete.  

 

Who can participate: We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not) AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.

 

What’s in it for you: Participants who complete the questionnaires will be paid $5 CAD (money transfers via PayPal). You can also choose to participate in our long-term study, where you will fill out a shorter version of the questionnaires every three months for two years. You will be paid $5 CAD each time you complete a set of questionnaires (about 30 min each), and you will get a $15 CAD bonus once you have completed all 9 sets for a total of $60 CAD. Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

 

Please contact us at perl@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

 

Thank you,

 

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)

Simon Fraser University

Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6

 

 

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[21 Sep 2008|08:01pm]

nikaroo13
I'm 6 months and 3 days free. I'm having a really tough time at the moment so I'm hoping posting this will help me to stay free. Keep fighting everyone. xx

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Hello there :) [27 Jul 2008|10:57pm]

ashleys_mask
[ mood | accomplished ]

Hi, My name is Ashley. I'm sixteen years old and a cutter. I'm looking for a helping hand whenever no one around me seems to be able to help. I'm here to share my story and maybe get some sense out of life.

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[11 Jul 2008|01:11am]

xxstarxlightxx
 
I came home...and there was nothing left. I was sober...and I just wanted to feel high...I don't want to die just yet...I want to help myself....I just feel so lost sometimes.

This week was amazing...and I feel like...things can get better if I let them...but sometimes Its just so hard.



I'm ready. Please oh please just let me get past this week alright.

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damn [04 Jul 2008|11:10am]

icm_24
i hadn't realized but i have now gone one full year without SI. i thought the last time i had cut/burned was in july and after looking it was actually in june.

what sucks is when i completed the year was also when i fucked up thoroughly with some close friends. also the last time i spoke with some of them.

*sigh* fuck it. deal with it and move on. if you dwell on shit you just tempt yourself to SI even more.

what sucks is moving on without friends makes for alot of lonely days. its been 3 weeks since i hung out with anyone.

i've been sober for one month today for various reasons. too many long stories there. don't know how much longer i'll go. sometimes i see myself staying that way through the year, other times i don't see it lasting past the weekend.

*shrug* que sera, sera.

hope everyone's doin aight. peace out ya'll. holla!

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